Cleaning Out More Than Closets ...

Oh, to be this happy right now ... ( I miss her!)

I've never been one to box myself in, but recently I feel as though I live in a box.

After being sick the past couple of days, I had a really good cry last night, went to sleep, ... and--BAM!-- awakened to feeling like myself again. Acknowledging that my house is empty, my loved ones are scattered, and questioning if I made the right decision in accepting a much more demanding position at work were at the core of that cry.

I've boxed myself in, regarding my emotions, and this vagabond at heart needs to ESCAPE.

A former boss and friend sent an email this evening regarding how her own fear of the economic situation, etc. had boxed her in. She's always been a mentor to me, and I wish we lived closer these days. she's decided to reclaim her old self, who took those leaps of faith.

So ... what do I do? Well, I'd probably move to Texas for a while, if I didn't need to be just a few hours away from my elderly dad.

In the meantime while I'm fully engaged in this major midlife transition (okay, it was a "crisis" last night), I'll do the following:

1. Continue cleaning out the house and making repairs and deciding where I want to be in a few years. Letting go of the home in which I raised my sons will not be easy at all, but the alternative is to be boxed in.

2. Doing the best I can do at work WITHOUT sacrificing my health, recognizing what is beyond my control and what I can do to work smarter and to motivate others.( And still wondering why so many people don't "get" art.)

3. Indulge in a Lenten cleanse. Yes, friends, I've decided to do a candida cleanse during the first month of Lent, which means no chocolate, cheese, wine ... well, just a lot of raw things and herbal concoctions. Deprivation? I have a feeling I'm going to feel great and not really miss the many carbohydrates I eat ... hahaha. I live on carbs. This will be interesting.

Gotta get to work ...